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Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself,  – 1 Corinthians 6:19

I am 5’ feet tall and 3 years ago I weighed 170 pounds.  According to medical charts that is obese and that is how I felt.  I was tired all the time and it effected every area of my life.  It was hard for me to be positive and all I wanted to do was eat and sleep.  I realized that even when I was 9 months pregnant with my kids, I still didn’t weigh that much.  I was in a size 12 that needed to buy size 14 clothes but I refused.  I decided that something had to change.

I signed up for a gym membership because I knew that I would make excuses not to go and that I needed someone to hold me accountable.  This was a start of a 2 year journey of a complete lifestyle change.  I worked out 5-6 days a week and was on a strict diet.  I was able to get down to 120 pounds wearing a size 4 (I didn’t even wear a size 4 in high school).  I felt amazing.  I had reached my personal goal and I was so happy to be “done”.

I will be completely honest.  I hated working out, sure I felt better afterward but I am not one of those people that actually enjoys sweating and being sore.  I love food, all of it and I love sitting on my couch watching Netflix.  Again, I am being completely honest here.

I was in denial and thought that I could control myself and maintain my weight without working out.  Again, I hated working out so I would NEVER let myself get to where I was before.

Well….

Here I am today and I am at 160 pounds wearing a size 10.  I don’t feel good, my clothes don’t fit me comfortably and I am so disappointed with myself.  So here we go again…I don’t want to go to the gym though.  I am going to use this blog and my resources, friends, family to hold me accountable.  I want to try to work out doing fun things and not the mundane squats, lunges and bicep curls that still haunt me to this day.

As I have grown also in my faith during this time that I am not doing this now for myself but for God.  The Holy Spirit lives in me so I need to take care of my body, physically and spiritually.

So starting tomorrow I will go back on my strict diet and will do something with high intensity movement 6 days a week.

Stay moving friends…

For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.  – Philippians 4:13