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That is the question!

I am the planning type. Everything is planned and I believe in order to be on time to an appointment I must be at least 10 minutes early. I plan dinners, bible studies, quiet time with God, family game nights, grocery shopping, phones calls, and usually at least a full week out. I have my routine and when something “comes up” I have a hard time adjusting to a new one. I have struggled with this and people have asked me, “do I need to make an appointment to talk to you?” I do not want to make anyone feel like I am too busy for them.

At the same time, when someone does not schedule in advance for events or doesn’t invite me until the last minute (day before or day of), I get frustrated because I want to go but I have a hard time rearranging my schedule to “make it work”.  I take things like this personal and feel like either I was not important enough to invite sooner or that they just don’t care about my schedule at all. This is an area I struggle with in many areas of my life and I have found myself praying about it lately. What God has been revealing to me is not what I was expecting…

We can make our plans, but the LORD determines our steps. – Proverbs 16:9

I have come to realize that I have let pride and my selfishness get in the way of God’s blessings for me.  I hold such a tight grip on my schedule and routine that when an opportunity presents itself I usually don’t embrace it because I have my own plans.  It is good to make plans and have goals but I have learned that I need to make room for God to direct/change my plans and goals so that His will may be done, not mine.  If I keep my focus on His will for me instead of my own, I will not have worry, frustration or stress.

Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” – James 4:13-15

Now don’t get me wrong, plans and goals are great and God wants us to make those and do our best work in achieving them BUT do not get so focused and wrapped up on your plans and goals that you lose sight of God’s will for you!  After many prayers that is exactly what God has revealed that I have been doing.  I have missed many blessings due to this and today is a new day.  I will have my plans and goals but I will always keep my eyes open and be ready for the exciting adventure that God lays out before me!!

As has just been said: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion.” – Hebrews 3:15

So today I will start asking myself on every decision: Do my goals make room for the unexpected? Do I love God’s will more than my own?

So I am here to say – Today and everyday going forward “God I am available, use me like you have never used me before!!”